The one who is not loved by anyone

2007-03-22T04:18:00.001-07:00

2007-03-22T04:17:00.000-07:00

Culinary adventure part 2

2007-03-20T05:01:00.001-07:00

just pictures

2007-03-15T10:15:00.000-07:00

Culinary adventure

2006-12-11T04:59:00.000-08:00

im tired .. over werked .. and the idea of going to a doctor to pescribing me happy pills is veeeery tempting ~

anyway i lost my handphone and that my dear, doesnt help my current situation. nuh uh ... nay ... iyeee

need to get a new one wud equal to M-O-N-E-Y

yes people that luvly root of all evil .. money ...

im getting big eye bags on me face fer all to see ^^ isnt it luvly yea ...

anyway im being a high-strung sarcastic needing realease angst emo covered in sugar ... sounds wrong doesnt it ?

haaaaaiz ...

gawd ... all i do here is dumping my complaints fer all who still take the time to read the craps tat i wote so far ( i thank thee)

i supposed to atleast blog something interesting .. ya know .. like any new restaurant tat ive tried .. or share some juicy secrets (which i dun have any, maybe because gossips is such a turn off) anything fun and joyous wateva crap ...

may i find peace someday .. cuz i feel like the ground that im standing keep on shifting.

im such a jerk ..

2006-11-18T20:43:00.000-08:00

well she made me feel like im a jerk ... fuck !~
why she did not call me ... i cant blame my hp to have low sound when ppl sms me .. wish i cud though .. i dun even know she was waiting for me ... why the hell cant she call my hp instead !!

if im a jerk then she's stoopid .. k make that im pissed and she just hard to please

fucktard !!!

and she's using emotional - blackmail against me .. man all these years with my mom emo-blackmail me .. how come im not immune to it yet ...

Y_Y

wateva la ..

2006-09-20T00:40:00.000-07:00

Due to my insulting ( without me realizing it) to AKI ... im completing my bloggin on waseda shibuya outing ... to AKI , pls be appeased with this ne
And be glad about it ^^ coz im known to be lazy with giving details ...

Ahhh my poor fingers … *types away*

anyway AKI ^^ just kidding ~ JODAN DAYO ~~ i love to write in details fer u ^^

:Phmmm lets start ~

first stop ~ playing games !! it was damn fun seriously soince i forgot all about boredom once i play da games with AKI .. we were excited as hell n not to mention NOISY lolz hmm think we scared the kid who were doing the quiz games with us lol ... maybe we shud act more lady like when we go to the next waseda shibuya thingy hmmm ?

second stops ~ errmmm forgot wat exactly .. but ive remembered me n Aki do the tour thingy even though half way joining with Haz n kentang taichou ... but there's these two genki n cute girls tat made me laugh ^^ i think they're cute with genkiness n smiles .. kudos to em' fer making the fest livelier ^^ cuz i was deflated at tat tyme .. im gettin tired easily nee

third stops ~ Hunted Hoooouse !!!! scary ... damn scary ... they shud get a nobel prize fer it ^^ the music ... the setting *claps claps* fantastic arh. hahaha but da letdown was we waited almost an hour or more not sure just for the haunted house .. the most popular attraction i think ^^ but even so .. i plyed games with my friends who was waiting fer the line as well .. so the wait wasnt all tat boring ^^ Again ... Haunted house ~~~ SAIKO DESU !!!!

fourth stops ~ mini concert ^^ SAIKO !~ i get to hear ROSIER live ... luna sea greatest hit ^^ the rest im not sure wats da songs were but it was still entertaining ^^ i spent the whole tyme im there looking at guitar and bass player when they play their instruments .. they're not bad but not tat fantastic either ^^ i was hoping to learn a few tips from em' they can carry da tunes well ^^ i hope one day i can too ^^

the bass ~ was acting all cool

the vox ~ full of feelings // from his many facial expressions

guitarist one ~ feeling the beat ... doin his jiggy dance while playing the guitar

guitarist two ~ cool cucumber ^^

fifth stops ~ wud be the drama performances by this group of insane kids ^^ and tats not a prob either ~ i enjoyed the play very much ~~ their insanity was hilarious ... i remembered doing plays fer volunteering events ~ i was told to be crazy on stage as i can coz on stage no one takes u seriously.. well not tat much ^^ lolz

so then after tat , the fest is almost closing ... we met a few jap students there .. fun ppl ^^ esp tat maid hahaha he was acting all cute n shy ^^ and he was like a celebrity or sumthing ~ ppl wants to take his pictures and hug him ... he was the centre of attention ^^ hehe did i mention tat the maid is a he not a she .. yea i think i did ^^ CROSS-DRESSING RULES !! lolz ^^

ok so after we went to eat at west coast ^^ haha more had an argument + meal .. we were like making alot of noises ^^ and eat alot too .. yep .. haaaaiz anyway after they went to Bugis ... didnt follow .. coz too tired to do anything else ... n im broke too so yeah said good byes to em n on my way home ^^ hmmmm ... very detailed explaination on tat day huh ? dun cha think so ??

k .. my werk here is done ...hope no one feel insulted after this ^^ cioa fer now.

huh ?

2006-09-18T23:59:00.000-07:00

last sunday, 17 sept 2006

i did not go to werk .. instead i asked pakcik to take over fer me tat day cuz i wanna go to WASEDA SHIBUYA SEIRAN SAI FESTIVAL ^^ hehehe
It was crowded .. i wasn't enjoying much really ~ gawd it was almost boring .. well almost *smiles sheepishly*

Theres alot of underaged bishies ^^

Buuuut none caught my eye though haaaaaaaiz ..

it was fun but exhaustion gets the better of me .. it always happened when im over-excited and ended up using all my energy n genkiness and by the end of the day~ i grew tired ^^ and shut up .

lol .. anyway we went to west coast to eat ^^ an ok meal .. nothing really mind blowing ...

shiiiiiiiiiiiit !

sorry heheh just wanna blog tat werd ^^

shiiiity shity shitty shitty life !!!!!!!!!!!!

hmmm .. how about ..

fucki fuck fuck fucking fuck

lolz

geeez i hope i dun get banned from bloggin because this.

ah well .. anyway didnt mean any of it ..

juz wanna see sum bad werds on my blog ..

today

2006-09-18T06:59:00.000-07:00

gawd nothing much is happening

i swear im rotting away with nothing on much Y_Y

isnt there anything interesting going on in this world??

sumthing mind blowing

sumthing tat ppl neva seen before??

think im asking too much??

or im asking for trouble??

morelike im lazy to do anything interesting

well ive been reading lotsa fanfiction

some of em ok arh

but the good ones are all incomplete

haaaaiz

need a good story ah ~

2006-09-09T17:46:00.000-07:00

today when log into my blog ... AKI tagged tat there's no url fer my livejournal .. i was like ehhhhh ~ nonsense ...
when i clicked on the link .. n yeah she was ryte Y_Y ...

maybe i typed the add link wrongly nee

http://kagraaism.livejournal.com/

--> here try and click on this one instead .. direct copy n paste from my livejournal ..

2006-09-09T06:48:00.000-07:00

MY LIVEJOURNAL STILL ALIVE ^^ COME AND VISIT IT neeeeee ~

http://www.kagraaism.livejournal.com

--> i often update it more than my own blog , yea the shame of it hehehe

--> but this blog is precious cuz i made it so tat i can comm with my friends tats my true intention

i dont like it to ignore things tat started with good intention so this blog still stands so forgive me if im slow at updating it ^^

wth ???

2006-09-09T05:58:00.000-07:00

OMG my bro watched internet pornage !!!!!! whahahha i know i shud not be laughin !! BUUUT he is hentai-errrr than me wth ???? i suddenly saw the vid in the player i was like .... O_O waaah soo many positons *gawked*

i was sooo damn amused i told my sis ... my sis told my dad ... and my mom found out whahaha i dun stand ard to see wat happened next

well atleast my bro is normal healthy boys

geh~!

anyway lets angst !~~~ woooo emo !!!

im emo-errrr than emo itself !~

i hate my werk !!! wooohooo

i hate goin to werk in the morning !~~~~

WOOOHHH YEAH !~~~~

im UNHAPPY !~~~ wish i cud be more FREE - ERRRR

^^

tats felt good hehe

so any comments on my emo-nesss ??

2006-06-28T09:07:00.000-07:00

Summarized chapters of my life

Jan 2006

ive planned to go to Japan to watched Kagrra concert

so ive searched fer werk ~ got werk

(1) bought the damn concert tix ( still with me *teary eye*)

(2) searched the damn map fer direction to the concert in the internet

(3) lookout fer air tix to japan

Feb 2006

werk like hell

trying to werk and hang out with fwens

my internet broke down .. i broke down too

its been hell

March 2006

Internet's up and ok

told dad im goin to Japan

he freaked out & start to being a jerk

HAte him fer life

go fer Nafa interview

i can go for Dip. of visual comm

Dad's being a jerk again .. says stupid things like

tat school fer rich kids (non sense)

Cant survive with Art u'll end in the street ( go to hell)

If u wanna go to Nafa so much .. pay ure own fees ( not enuff cash )

i asked fer my sis's help .. fer da fees and stuff ~ starts looki fer subsidy crap

Dad's interfere and being a jerk once more .. told her not to help me

me = Depressed as hell ~ turns angst n emo

April 2006

go to a diff direction ~ retake O

taking it easy

tempted to make i hate my dad shrine in room *control self*

May/June 2006

my jap lessons have been fun

O level .. made sum new fwens ( there's a girl who likes Vespa too *grins* )

decides not dwell too much on wat had happened .. hafta keep on smiling

~ OWARI ~ fer now

a different turn in my life

2006-05-07T21:25:00.000-07:00

sumtymes in my dream

im struggling ...

on my own ...

well ..

cant give up now ...

can i ?

well i wont ...

cuz i know i'll regret it if i do

so yeah

i'll keep on moving forward !

' The band '

2006-03-20T22:37:00.000-08:00

GOTHIQUE REVENGE

heheh this is my recently fave pix ^^ kawaii desu

what kind of soul am i ?????

2006-03-19T20:37:00.000-08:00

Earthly. Realistic. You're simply down-to-earth.

I'm completely down-to-earth!

Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.

You are the most in touch with knowledge. It's the tree of life from which you tap the sap. You know what you want and you know how to reasonably get it.

Virtues: You respect people with plans. When someone has their head on their shoulders, you know that they can see straightforward and keep their eyes on the mark. When it comes to looking at the future, you take a logical approach: what's within your ability? A fortunate attribute that you have is the ability to set a goal for yourself, higher than maybe you feel possible, but still keep yourself within reasonable bounds. You take the time to appreciate those surrounding you and they do appreciate you in return. Decision-making comes naturally to you when you take the time to consider each option. People only come to talk to you when they are looking for a logical, reasonable solution.

Aspirations: You have an idea of what you can do with your life, but you push it up a notch. You need a profession that you can enjoy, so work towards it. You want to live near your friends and family while being as far away as possible. You also want to settle down while working in excitement and variation.

Quirks: You don't appreciate drama queens and they don't appreciate you. When they need help, they won't seek you out because of your ability to see through their overly dramatic predicaments. You have leeway for humor, and sometimes love to participate in it, but when it becomes irrational behavior, others can count you out. Loud noises are bothersome, except when they come from you or your friends.

Factors: Reach for the sky! Don't decide to do something because you're merely good at it, but choose something you might like to do, despite whether you're sure you can master it or not. Don't only save room for a few empathetic friends, but open up to everyone.

Future: When looking for a job, if you work in all of your talents (logic, decision-making, planning, and definitely humor), you'll find yourself happy. Come to a compromise for location; live nearby your friends and take periodic vacations or live farther away and take frequent return trips.
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2006-01-23T19:31:00.000-08:00

im wanna quit work .......

!@#$%^&*()*&%$^$^$#@%#%

2005-12-27T01:14:00.000-08:00

You are Green!

What colour are you?
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2005-12-27T01:10:00.000-08:00

Green

Green comes with many symbiotic meanings,
among which, the strongest and the most
universal is nature. Related to that, it also
signifies life, youth, renewal, hope and vigor.
Brides in the Middle Ages wore green to
symbolize fertility.

Green is the easiest color on the eye and
can improve vision. It is a calming color and
has a neutral effect on the human nervous
system. The "green rooms" are
designed for people who are waiting to appear
on TV to sit and relax. Green is also a popular
color in hospitals because it relaxes patients.

Green's various shades have different
symbolic meanings:

Dark Green -- cool, masculine, conservative, and
implies wealth.
Emerald Green -- immortality.
Olive Green -- the color of peace.
Yellow-Greens -- least preferred color of
consumers.
Green represents money in American culture.

Colour Psychology
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2005-12-27T01:01:00.000-08:00

ryte now ... im pissed ... no internet no fun ... internet is my drug seh .... im trying to persuade my dad to get me one .... aaargh !

took a colour quiz on my existin situation, almost accurate

2005-12-08T22:49:00.000-08:00

Free personality analysis from ColorQuiz.com.
Generated on Thu Dec 8 22:48:22 2005.

Your Existing Situation
Trying to improve her position and prestige. Dissatisfied with her existing circumstances and considers some improvement essential to her self-esteem.

Your Stress Sources
Wishes to be independent, unhampered, and free from any limitation or restriction, other than those which she imposes of herself or by her own choice and decision.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels cut off and unhappy because of the difficulty in achieving the essential degree of cooperation and harmony which she desires.
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Sensitive and sentimental, but conceals this from all except those very close to him.

Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective
Unwilling to participate and wishes to avoid all forms of stimulation. Has had to put up with too much of a tiring or exhausting nature and now desires protection and noninvolvement

Your Actual Problem
Fears that her independence will be threatened or severely restricted unless she protects herself from outside influence. Does not want to be bothered.

2005-12-08T21:24:00.000-08:00

errrgh this really makes me mad ~ wat an hypocrite ... damn .. why do i have to handle this kind of person ... (T_T) i just want a simple life ...

first they support me ( i was happy) then after ive registered the damn course .. everyone was trying to get me out of it !!! .. why ? because the place tat ive chose to study is dangerous !!!! WOI ! so far ... Newton ( used to school there ) isnt the most safest place & theyve have no complaints bout it before ~

my mum made me look like the bad guy infront of my aunt ... and they say im wasting my dad's money by going there .. and made me go to study at another place ( sumwhere in jurong ... @ a cheaper rate )

DAMN U PPL ~ im not the most patient and u guys are pushing the line too far .. if its about money ... then made me pay u all back when i get a job .. i just need the moolah fer now ..

im trying to do sumthing tat i liked and u guys cant be happy abt it ... always belittling me ... saying tat im slow .. k fine im slow ... but im not that slow .. im not stupid either ... and why u asked me .. why are u reading so much when O level is done ... YOu look down on me woman ! i hate you ! ...

ive never gotten the support ive need ~ & yet u have the cheek to tell me wat to do ...

i want a better life ... do sumthing revolutionary fer myself

k i better stop ranting now before sumone shoot me down or sumthing

2005-11-19T23:23:00.000-08:00

i feel bad ... like ive betray someone ... i dont deserve to have friends .. i dont wish to hurt anyone at all ...
i feel like crying ... i dont feel like i belong anywhere ... its better that way ...
there's something wrong with me ... i want to run away .. to figure out wats really bothering me ... im not happy at all ... why do i feel like im back at square one when i thought tat ive improved ??? have i done nothing & gain nothing ?????? i feel like crying .... i wish i cud cry ... cry ... cry .. & cry ..
call me emo or wateva ... i dont care ...
im being truthful and tats wat important now ....

i hate everyone around me .. i ease up abit and they walk over me ... i dont want to be hated but seeing ppl doing this to me .. made me hate myself more .. more .. & more ...
i dont want people to hate me but i ended up hating myself ...

wats this turn of event happening to me ???

im dont wish to be lonely but if being lonely is the key of not being hurt .. then tat just wat i will do

i hate you

leave me alone

why must i alone lick my wounds

i believe i dont have any friends

i dont deserve to have any friends

2005-11-19T13:06:00.000-08:00

Artist: Psycho Le Cemu
Title: Love is Dead
Words: Lida
Music: Aya

in my heart I feel there's nothing to protect
what little time I had gone, Ah nothing
in my heart I feel there's nothing to discard
living without purpose, Ah I can't change it

Where should I go... my heart... unfulfilled
left holding a life already dead.

'will you love me? don't you want to love?'
even if I recite these words
these glass wings are cold and damp
and shivering in loneliness,
if I could cut myself off from the dark part of my memories
even if I couldn't say so
my desire to live would be enough to break me

I make the same mistakes over and over, putting out my arms
Ah I can't forgive

I can't stop these tears from running all by myself
I felt you exhale as you were leaving

even though I leave my trembling body
slumped against the wall of time
all it takes is for something to hurt me
and I'm on my own,
unaware of the dawn,
even if I gaze at you, from closer by, deeper, and more intensely
than any other
the only sound in the night is the hum.

warmth, in this hand, even now, you're face still pure
remains there glittering, when I close my eyes.
let the feelings flooding me, bloom in my heart

2005-11-17T04:20:00.000-08:00

k .. just wanna post sum cute kitten pictures ... i have 3 kittens ... 2 other so-called adult ones ... & one mommy cat

Ive just vandalised Ice's room .. she called me to draw a mural on her wall ..

and ummm my stuff (got nothing better to do ) so yeah ...

jst bought a new bag

my stuff in my room ...

Kagrra ... *lurve them*

& ... my bro
just took a pic of him ..

2005-11-16T22:15:00.000-08:00

what neko are you?(anime pics)
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2005-11-13T21:30:00.000-08:00

2005-11-04T05:31:00.000-08:00

Title: Green
Lyric: Nekochan

Green tears streaming down
fulfilling a purpose
a pool of green tea,
drink the bitterness
intense illness
drown in your own sea

green eye jealousy
brimming at the edge
pulling me harder,
lately its hard to see
in my mind's eye
shades turning darker

Silent green heart
seething inside
a solitude pain,
each breathe began to cease
realizing
nothing ive gain

staring down the green sea
as the unease sky rumble
wish to be in slumber,
ready to take the plunge
to conceal myself from your eye
when the rain turn harsher

-end-

please comment ...
eh .............
wait.. do not comment ...

2005-10-26T02:23:00.000-07:00

The day Aisha fell & scraped her left knee and im there to save the day
huahuahuahuahauahauahuahaua

2005-10-18T20:48:00.000-07:00

The graduation dinner last friday night 14/10/05 ... was emotional .... i almost drown everyone in tears ... hahahaha ...its my first tyme crying infront of so many people *the horror of it* bleah ... i cud not contain the emotion any longer ...just hafta let it go ... oh boy ...after that ... other ppl cry too cuz it will be our last day together in skool ...the 2005 batch of irsyad sch.

when it was my turn to voice out my little speech*everyone hafta to give one so i did* ...only tat i ummm choked with emotion ...i dun think anybody understnds ... so i give a short choked up speech... hahhahahahaha ... it was kinda funny if i were to recall it again ...

after that i saw my classmates one by one started to cry ...i think because of Mursalina's speech which hit da mark in everyone ... way to go gurl haha , really kewl though cuz the background music match her emotion tat she tries to convey to us ...well done.

2005-10-10T20:04:00.000-07:00

The true me

Today ive cried in the bus on da way home
im kinda feel like ive let sumone down
im da lowest

haaaiz ... the reason why i do the things that ive done
is more of my own weakness

im a weakling ... i hate confrontation
therefore i run away ...

i want things to be smooth ...

but there's no such thing ...

now im just running away again

im hurting ppl ard me as well im hurting myself

i need courage ...

2005-09-30T20:11:00.000-07:00

MY MOST HECTIC DAY

Aku dah plan da nak klua tgk movie ngan kawan2 lama (jun and kamal) aku

haaaaaaaaaaiz ... masalah tul... sal aku ingat nak skip sekolah on tat day tapiii

aku takleh arh pasal aku ada keje untuk Children Day later on abeh aku jugak kene

hantar Poster aku untuk KNOW DRUGS COMETITION ... so far aku sorang yang hantar

la ... haiz .... aku nak kawan2 aku hantar but entah diorang bz kut ... hehehe aku yang semangat , pe je zara ...

pasal aku tak leh skip la aku aku mintak ngan diorang jumpa kul 4 pm instead tapiii

aku tetap datang lambat ... pasal ... aku kene sembahyang jumaat kat skool ... pastu

aku kene jumpa Mr ismail ... pasal O level aku ( aku cuma pass 3 je ) (T_T) sedih

seh ... abeh .. aku kene jumpa Mr Rahamat ( who takes alot of my tyme) nak kasi

hadiah grad pastu bebual kenangan ... aku dah .. wat seh ... haiyoh ..

abeh aku binget ah .. sal ku dah janji kawan ... and aku taknak susahkan diorang ..

pasal tu aku nangis ... takde niat nak nangis ah ... tapi dah cam g2 ... aku tul2

frust ah ... pasal banyak keje kene buat abeh results O level pre-lim pun teruk

kan ... macam takde mood pun ade .. but den .. pasal aku dah janji ... aku tetap

pegi ... and pasal aku rindu kat diorang (^_^) ...

diorang call aku .. sms aku .. macam takut nak call/sms alik tapi .. aku contact

jugak diorang sal aku taknak kurang ajar ah ... nak bubble diorang kan ... sooo they

decided to buy da movie tixs first so aku agree ah since aku nak kat sampai jugak ah ...

abeh aku mana tahu sangatkan Jurong point tu .. so aku mintak ah direction ...

diorang kata tingkat 4 ok so ... aku naik lip gi tingkat 4 ... haaaaaaiz ... aku

klua tros nampak library (T_T) ... aku blur kejap .. lepas aku sedar ... aku pekik

SHIT! kat depan library ... tros aku kejar lip sebelum tutup ... auntie cina kat

sebelah tgk aku semacam ... aku tersengih je ah ... hahahahahahah ... sorie ah

auntie ... im not samseng ya know ... abeh aku agak ah nie mesti tingkat 3 ...

memang betul pun tingkat 3 ... sal aku nampak dua ekor tu ... ahhahahahaha .. hapi skit aku ...

aniwae ... diorang ketawakan aku ... sal eh ? .. nie mesti sal aku lari cam org tak

betul .. mana tak ... kaki aku sakit woi ... kesakitan ... adui (bilster)... abeh
binget nye pasal gak ... aku marah ah ... sal kasi aku salah information blergh... hahahha but kakla jugak ah ... hahahahahha

tak nak beli kasut cam ni lagi ... buat sakit kaki ... aku tahan je la ... haaiz ...

biler kite masuk cinema ... aku tgk cerita fave aku wooi ... kelakra tapi da volume

is too much sia ... sakit telinga aku hahahaha ... takpe la ... asalkan aku dapat

dengar suara Johnny depp ...aku gumbira beb ...

lepas tgk movie....aku dah takleh angkat lagiah...kakiakusakit ...kepala otak aku

pikir nak buang belakang kasut aku..so aku pikir nak beli pen knife...aku

cariah...POPULAR ... dah jumpa pen knife ... aku pegi bayar ah ... abeh aku tgk org

kat cashier tgk aku semacam .... aku pun heran lah .. ape cite seh .. abeh dier kata

nak plastic ... aku cakap tak nak ah .. yelah aku bawa bag sebesar umat ... takkan

aku nak plastic kan ... adoi ... sakit giller kaki aku tat tyme ... tak tahan nya

pasal tros aku jalan cari mal and jun ....

aku jumpa diorang ... yg heran nye ... diorang tgk aku semacam ... pe seh ... aku

pun heran jugak .. so mintak klua sekali ah ... aku dah get ready ngan aku nye pen

knife ah .. abeh aku amik kasut aku ... nak potong skit kat belankang dier ...

diorng ketawakan aku ... aku blur kejap ah .. ape cite seh ...

rupenya .. diorang ingat aku nak bunuh budak mana entah ... siot ah .... aku tak

berniat seh ... aku pun ketawa ah ... yelah ... dirong nye pikiran buat aku ketawa

takleh angkut nye ... ahahhahahahahahahahx

mepek seh ... haaiz ... lepas tu ... kitaorg lepak ah sumwhere ... bebual ...

bebual ... bebual ... tat tyme aku dah penat seh .... malas jugak nak bebual .. tapi

ni sekali sekala nye pasal ... aku pun bebual ah ... hehehehehe ... hepi seh aku

bersama ngan diorang walaupun sekejap ...

tros kitaorg alik ... haaaaaaaaaaaiz nice day yesterday ... stress level aku pun

dah turun ... hahahahha

and da moral og this story ...

nah ... tats not it ....
moral of all tis stupidity is

(1) i'll not plan goin out with ma fwens when i have so many things to do ... free tyme je

(2) neva to wear tat stupid shoe again ...

-end-

2005-09-25T20:25:00.000-07:00

My sista's Engagement Ceremony

It was terrible ~ during da preparation for my sis's engagament

Everyone was at their brink of insanity

Yup .. all of us lost our temper ... cuz of our different expectation

My sis wants it simple

My adults want it 'old-fashion' without spending much $$

I just want it toend

so ppl are goin crazy juz to make things perfect

And i hafta help out ~ haiiiiz ...

in other words ... SPRING CLEANING

LAST MINUTE SHOPPING

And LAST MINUTE TOUCH-UP on everything

Well its over now ...

Things are back to normal

And ya btw ... CONGRAT SIS ..

And sorry for driving u crazy these past few weeks

2005-09-19T23:52:00.000-07:00

Waseda Shibuya ~
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wat to say eh ? about tat day ...
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It was an eye-opener for me
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cuz it was like a mini japan community RYTE HERE IN SG
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Dont need to go farway naik kapal terbang to Japan
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when u can experienced it ryte here
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hehehe ... since its an annual event ... i'll go next year again
P/s : im tired ryte now ... cant type anything else ..... sorie ... i'll update tis seriously later on promise

2005-09-19T23:38:00.000-07:00

WASEDA SHIBUYA

- The End -

2005-09-16T10:08:00.000-07:00

Current mood :Desperate
Been : revising sum werk &

Thinkin how to redo my artwerk

Haiz ... in tis house it seems hard for

me to focus on my studies 100%

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since my parent always expected me to

do chores around the house

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irritating ah

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ryte now i wanna redo

my Know Drugs poster

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cuz in my other poster they it

looked like Michael Jackson

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Wargh! the horror (>_<)

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the say the nose made

it looked like him

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so ...

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HELP ! ppl

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im quite stress here

2005-09-16T07:41:00.000-07:00

Some screen shots from Spirited Away
waaargh Haku ! *melts*

2005-09-16T07:18:00.000-07:00

Mood : Happy - Lurve sick
Been : Watchin "Spirited Away" Hayao Mizayaki Film

i was whisked away to a beautiful sceneric, fast-paced

plot and endearing film ... Spirited away ... it was damn great watchin it ... especially

when HAKU the witch apprentice make his debut

... hahahahax ... it kinda remind me of Wizard Howl ... maybe its da haircut ... he is

sooo dreamy ... the kind of guy i would fall hard for ...

overall the film is very entertaining ...

and the lead heroin Chihiro is kind-hearted, brave and well uniquely had her wit up

... like every Mizayaki's heroin ... remind me of The Moving Castle heroin

.... hmmm wat was her name ??

2005-09-10T07:36:00.000-07:00

Mood : Devastated
Been : crying my eyes out

Today something bad had happened that me cry ... i felt i could flood Singapore ...
My family doesnt know this cuz i do not want to stir anything up that might fuse unwanted attention from them ...

so crept quietly back to my room .. avoidin any eye contact and just sat there crying
i felt stupid though doing it
but it just felt so right
i hate trying to be strong all da tyme when all i wanted is just to cry ...

It just so sad ... today is just my sad day ...
everything seem like a dead end
its been a long tyme since i cried this hard ... i dont remember when but tis is like my version of tsunami ...

i choked on my tears so that no one can hear me cry ...

i hate it when i felt tis vulnerable

Arghh!

like i said

TODAE IS JUST NOT MY DAY

2005-09-10T04:49:00.000-07:00

Mood : cranky
Been doing: Math sums

haizz ... today im feeling abit down ... a lil bit touchy ... sheesh im soo sensetive these days ... wonder why huh ?
my sis is such a ***** ... she always say da wrong thing at the wrong tyme without tact (always putting me down infront of others) & i hafta watch out for her unpredictable moodswings !!
i have always hated her ~ called it sibling rivalry
and also sumthing in the past but ive always been civil but today i juz cant ... i simply cant ignore her ignorant behaviour towards me ... sumtyme when i had enough ... i'll just go bonkers ... plss go and get married and leave me the hell alone 'sis' !
If you cant be nice to me then GO FARAWAY from me .. i too dont want you around ... being nice to you cuz our parent says so is juz killing me ... i wanna run away ... from you ... tats wat i really want unless u change your ways toward me then i will if not ... so be it

i hate quarelling ... ive always want to avoid it but if i have to fight
i have no choice do i ?
cuz if i ignore wat you do to me
you will think its ok to treat me tat way
well let me state tis (if ure happened to read tis)
IT's NOT

haaaiz i muz be crazy posting tis ... but i need an outlet for my pent feelings ...

i would be probably quarrel with my sis IF she reads tis

*being stubborn* who cares !

2005-09-01T22:55:00.000-07:00

INFP are my personality

INFPs are quiet, creative, sensitive and perceptive souls who often strike others as shy, reserved and cool. These folks have a rare capacity for deep caring and commitment--both to the people and causes they idealize. INFPs guide their behavior by a strong inner sense of values, rather than by conventional logic and reason. Forced to cope with this facts-and-figures "real" world we inhabit, INFPs may appear to have been imported from another galaxy! They gravitate toward creative or human service careers which allow them to use their instinctive sens of empathy and remarkable communication skills. Strongly religious, spiritual or philosophical people, INFPs may see the purpose of their lives as an inner journey, quest or personal unfolding. More practical or rational types may tend to discredit the INFP's sources of understanding as mystical. The search for a soulmate is a preoccupation for many INFPs, who must balance their need for privacy and peace with their yearning for human connection. If there seems to be an air of sadness in the INFP's spirit, blame it on this type's longing for the perfect in all things.

2005-08-31T08:27:00.000-07:00

Ive been wondering lately ...

Why am i still single ???

hmmmm .. so i took tis test to find out ...

I wonder why you did this quiz in the first
place...you are single for a very simple reason
- you want to be single. You are perfectly
happy on your own and don't need a guy to make
your life complete! And I believe that's a good
thing. But remember, some guys find
independence attractive, and maybe one day a
very persistent guy will win your affection ;)
.

Why are you still single? {for girls - many detailed outcomes+PICS!!} EDITED VERSION WITHOUT MISTAKES
brought to you by Quizilla

so now i know ... haiz ...

maybe ... one day ... i'll find that special someone to share my life ( waaaaaay later)

2005-08-30T18:39:00.000-07:00

Haiiiiiiiz .. troublesome seh
i have decided to enter poster making drug relating competition

i have finished sketching my artwerk but when i want to paint it ... i blew it big time
i cant control da colur ... brush technique ... blablabla
so i hafta do another one !!!!!

Waaaaaaaaaaaargh !!!!

so now i feel dejected

but then i cant give up now can i ??

i wanted to prove something ...

i wante to prove that im not that suck when it comes to art

haiz ... but ryte now i have da ryte to feel low cuz ...

its been 3 years doing art and i haven't improve much

wat have i been doing all this while ???

2005-08-29T02:31:00.000-07:00

Today my beloved cat (puteh) went crazy and everyone blamed me for it (T_T) i meant no harm really ...
i just put her old cat "necklace" on and went crazy trying to open it ... so i tried to stop her n tried to open it but i cant cuz like i say she went BLAISTIC fuuuuuh~
so my bro comes to the rescue ...

hehehehe her two kittens ran for their life away from their raging mommy ... me juz sit there gawking ... but after all that commotion ... she went back to her usual disposition ...

and went to sleep in my room (^_^')

Crazy ... loony... bonker cat

2005-08-27T04:07:00.000-07:00

.......... PISCES ..........

.... its about me .......

Element: Water

Mode: Mutable

Ruler: Neptune

Color: Blue, Blue-Violet, Red Magenta

Famous Pisces:
Ursula Andress, Drew Barrymore, Cindy Crawford, Nat "King" Cole, Albert Einstein, Wyatt Earp, Alan Greenspan, Steven Jobs, Glenn Miller, Liza Minnelli, Rupert Murdoch, Pierre Auguste Renoir, John Steinbeck, Sharon Stone, Levi Strauss, Elizabeth Taylor, Antonio Vivaldi, George Washington

Strengths:
Adaptable, altruistic, artistic, compassionate, cooperative, creative, devoted, imaginative, intuitive, romantic, sensitive, spiritual

Weaknesses:
Apprehensive, chaotic, fragile, impractical, inactive, indecisive, obscure, unrealistic, unreliable, unstable, weak-willed

Pisces, the twelfth and last sign of the zodiac, is regarded as the sign of sensitivity and receptivity, and you are a true chameleon, mutable and infinitely complex. Your keywords are communion and vision, and you have the capacity to go beyond this world to the one of dreams and the spirit. Your ruler Neptune, the planet of confusion and chaos, gets people out of habits that imprison them so that they question themselves and can discover another path toward growth and spirituality. Neptune is the planet of imagination and illusion, and governs the dream world with all its many facets.

Pisces is the third of the three water signs, Siti Zahara, which means that you are concerned with the realm of emotion and feeling. You deal with sensitivity, intuition, and deeper psychic aspects of life.

Your sign rules the twelfth house of the chart, the sector associated with the unconscious, the need for seclusion, and places of restriction. This house is very healing and can promote personal and spiritual growth, once you make the effort and face YOUR reality.

Pisces is a mutable sign. You adapt to the exigencies of life and ingeniously melt into circumstances like a chameleon. In your interaction with others, you are personable and compassionate, and successfully connect on a deep emotional level.

Life path : 7

Your Life-Path number is probably the most influential numerological aspect to be considered, Siti Zahara, and represents who you are at the time of birth. It indicates specific traits and will likely be active and influential throughout your lifetime. It is the overall number that determines much of what will be important to you and how you will handle things as they come. If your Life-Path number is SEVEN, depth of thinking and the ability to gain knowledge from most everything will be something you’ve experienced since an early age. SEVEN is considered the ‘spiritual’ number and such qualities as intuition will be prominent. Those with a SEVEN Life-Path are usually peaceful and affectionate. You may not have many friends as a SEVEN, but the ones you do have will be for life. You’re a compassionate and caring friend. As a SEVEN, you will likely be able to sense deception from others quickly and you’re not likely to be wrong. A balance between time with others and private time taken to be alone with your thoughts and dreams is essential. It is common for SEVENS to be seen as aloof due to their selective socializing and required time alone. If the truth be told, many SEVENS feel a sense of insecurity. This may be because much of a SEVENS ‘reality’ is not tangible. You will rely heavily on instincts and intuition. At times this insecurity can lead to pessimism or loneliness. Mood swings are also not uncommon

Zodiac sign : tiger

You have a rage to live and the teeth to sink into a plank of wood. Fortune doesn't motivate you but your desire for passionate adventure and impossible challenges does! Cyrano de Bergerac would almost dim in comparison to someone as high in color as yourself. Nothing stops you, neither eccentricity nor danger. You decide on your course of action through impulse; you listen to your heart more than to your reason. Your fearless enthusiasm motivates others. People would follow you to the end of the earth if only to take part in the wild dreams that you imagine each day to get beyond the reality and routine of every day life. This extravagance goes hand-in-hand with a need to command: you love it when people obey you without a word. Caution to those who don't: they could get badly clawed. Excessive in everything, your behavior betrays the force of your emotions: passion and anger are part of your every day life. If someone tries to put you in a cage, you become crazed and roar loud enough to dislocate your jaw! An insatiable adventurer, you build your life from the hazards and opportunities you encounter, grabbing onto the chances that are offered to you with an almost unconscious audacity. Your fault: You are unpredictable and not very good at making others feel secure.

2005-08-27T03:51:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>>>>> My side of the story <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

yesterday :: Qiyam @ school

How was it ?? 50% sucky

What was so sucky ?? hmmmmm lemme see ...

(1) the disiplince atmosphere
(2) the freezing musollah (our sleeping quater)
(3) Boooring games
(4) not much sleep
(5) the mock math test in the morning ( i felt like shit ~~~ sleepy)

the other non-sucky 50% ???

(1) i lurve the night school atmosphere
(2) my annoying siblings is not there
(3) i felt peaceful having class at night
(4) Qiyam n Muhasabah diri isnt so bad after all

Tomorrow friends wedding ?? are you ready ??? are you feelin saiko ??

Nope

Cuz i think i cant make it !!!!!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!

since i hafta meet up with the others for sum math lessons @ woodlands

we will be meeting at 8:30 am for da wedding ... a lil too early dont you think ??

and i have math lesson @ 9 a.m.

haiiiiz its fated ... cant do anything about that

2005-08-24T00:07:00.000-07:00

Lately ive been depressed about something ... i felt that i could not survive tis year O level cuz im always distracted by something .... i wish i could focus more ...

im kinda suprised ... cuz i neva cried before if im watching any television programme BUT ive cried my eyes out when i watched Naruto .... there's this part about rock lee ... very touchin ... *weeps* ... he's a dropout ... so i know how he feels ...

And when naruto's sad pasts were on i bawled my eyes out too ... haiz thankz god no one saw this ... hahahahahahha

i dunno ... the story just gets to me ~ it pull a nerve or two .... i miss my old frens ... i used to feel that the whole world hates me ... sometimes ppl overlook or underestimate me cuz i look harmless ....

i know how Naruto and rock lee felt ... working hard to get the recognition that we deserve ....
that will be the day ...

haiz ... i feel sad actually ... during art class ... people doesnt think i can do better than Hidayah or Adibah ... *sniff sniff* next to them ... i feel inferior

there gonna be a competition ... Know drugs poster competition .... im not goin for it for the money but im competing to see whether im capable in art ... i must find out !!!!!

2005-08-05T18:36:00.000-07:00

Today i gave Rui's my kitten .... i named him Petir cuz of his crooked tail at the end ... hahahah ... but i neva called him tat cuz i tot it wasnt cute enuf ... i hope she can takes care of him ... me really gonna misses him alot cuz he always make me smile with his funny antics ... running ard (kinda irritating too) ... my mom was sad about it .... hahahhaah ... guesse she really liked tat cat but im giving it away cuz we cant take care of four cats ... she always complaining about no one taking proper care of the cats ... im juzt liftin sum burden off her ... me n my sis are busy .. me with O level ... my sis werkin ... and yeah my bro is taking N level tis year .... my dad is busy too ... hahahha actually he neva takes care of da cat before ...

we all gonna miss him but i believe im just spreading da love ...

hahahah wooo spread sum love babay ...

okay ... how izit everything with me eh ???

lately ... i felt that i dun have any idea where to go to after O level cuz ... well during Art Class ....

Madam Baizah : *taking out two scary book covers* here is adibah's and hidayah's werk ...

*starts pouring out compliments * hidayah's werk shows a sign of maturity

bla bla bla ...

Me : *in da shadow* (T_T)

i felt that i didnt do a good job ....

Madam Baizah : *taking out Hida's Werk* okay wats to improve here ...

Me : i think hida's werk is really cute .... but i guesse she can improve it abit ..

Then she says that when ppl say sumone else werk is cute .. they're not mature

by then my whole is crumbling bit by bit ... i felt like crying .. then after that i grew quiet ...

and to top it all off ... she says that she felt out of anyone here ... Hidayah n Adibah are likely the ones to survive in an ART school .....

my future is soo bleak ....

soooooooo ...

now what ?? where to go ??? wat do i enjoy doing anyway ??????

????????????????????????????

2005-07-27T21:50:00.000-07:00

wats happening lately ....

(1) im waiting for sum d/l to finish

- All of chobits series + OVA

- Loveless series

And well ... kagrra file arent budging !!! stuck 90.8% ... & 50 ++ % ...

WAAARGH !!!!

hahahhah ... (^_^)> my blog kinda lame ~ nothing much happened lately if anything happened i'll be reluctant to write it in here anyway hehehehhe ... IF u ppl wanna know anything ... come to me personally ... i'll tell it to you if i want to ... if i want to ... im not obliged to tell anything i dun want to neee ...

hehehe but dont worry if i were to write anything personal here ( rare moments ...) i'll be sure to write it ... BUT THEN ... (suggestion !!) WHY DONT YOU READ MY FANFIC THAT I WROTE !!! ~(^0^) / hehehhe ... my first time writin my own fic ... titled PARADISE ISLAND *thumbs up* ... nothing fancy ... juz a fantasy of mine teehee

OR go try the quizzes that ive taken so far ... or juz enjoy the music in my blog ...

p/s: the reason im writing tis wh0ole crap is baecause got nothing better to write in here so dun complain ...

cioa ... sayonara

2005-07-25T21:12:00.000-07:00

LUNA SEA

STORM

Music and Words by LUNA SEA

Futo Me wo samashita Mayonaka no [Purachina] no hikari no naka

[Giragira] to Kagayaita Kono machi mo warukunai

Kimi to nara Kono arashi o Norikoerareru hazu sa

Do you like it rough? Tokimeki wo Sousa motometsudzukeyou

Do you like it rough?

Ima fukiareru Arashi no naka Sou dakiatte Tashikameatte

Ushinau mono nado Nanimonakatta hazu da ne

Te wo nobasanakya Ano hikari sae tsukamenai

What will it take for you Kimi ga nozomu you ni Boku mo nozonderu

Kiss me in the Storm...

Kiss me in the Storm...

Ima fukiareru Arashi no naka Sou dakiatte Tashikameatte

Ushinau mono nado Nanimo nakatta hazu da ne

Shinjitsu wa kitto Okubyou dakara sono sugata wo keshite misenai

Dakedo bokura wa Hanaretari wa shinai kara

Te wo nobasanakya Ano hikari sae tsukamenai

What will it take for you Kimi ga nozomu you ni Boku mo nozonderu

Kiss me in the Storm...

Kiss me in the Storm...

~Translation~

I suddenly opened my eyes surrounded by bright light in the middle of the night

This town which glistened fiery is not bad either

When I'm with you even this storm can be overcome

Do you like it rough?

Oh this excitement, yes, keep looking

Do you like it rough?

It's storming now in the middle of the storm, yes, hold on tight make sure

It's not as though you have lost anything

We need to reach out that light, I can't capture it

What will it take for you

I'm hoping like you are hoping

Kiss me in the Stormy...

Kiss me in the stormy...

It's storming now in the middle of the storm, yes, hold on tight make sure

It's not as though you have lost anything

Reality is certain that figure won't vanish because of shyness

But we (I won't let go)

We need to reach out that light, I can't capture it

What will it take for you

I'm hoping like you are hoping

Kiss me in the Stormy...

Kiss me in the Stormy...

::translated by Kiwichan (kiwichan@rife-is-remon.net)

Artist: Glay

Title: Runaway Runaway

Words: Takuro

Music: Takuro

Runaway to the wingless angels of sadness

Runaway fill me with peace just for now

Runaway if you hear my wish, give me happiness from now on.

Runaway there's been nothing good...

Safe tonight the night is polluted by the noise on the floor

Safe tonight her name was initials, I didn't call her by anything else

Safe tonight her singing voice was more beautiful than anyone's

Safe tonight I left my heart with her until the shop closed.

Brilliance What's your brilliance?

'It's ok to commend yourself to the devil.'

professed the rhythm, silence in a dry wind

Runaway 'I mustn't cry in loneliness

Runaway in order to make it through this darkness on my own'

Runaway Wanting to protect the girl who muttered this,

Runaway I curse the weakness in my heart

Brilliance What's your brilliance?

Claiming 'I want to hold you'

no doubt glaring at the world with the evil eye. Tonight.

Runaway a clear casual weekend

Runaway you tried to sound like the heroine

Runaway the serenade of the silver screen we once saw

Runaway sing it

Runaway held in the godess' cracking arms

Runaway fill me with peace just for now

Runaway if you hear my wish, make me happy from now on

Runaway there's been nothing good.

Runaway

On your way

Translated By: Brian Stewart & Takako Sakuma

Translator's Notes: None

Romaji

Runaway hane no nai kanashimi no tenshitachi ni

Runaway ima dake ha yasuragi ni michiteite

Runaway kanau nara kore kara ha shiawase ni

Runaway nani hitotsu ii koto nakatta na...

Safe tonight furoa no noizu ni yoru wo yogoshiteta

Safe tonight namae ha inisharu sore shika iwanakatta

Safe tonight kanojyo no utagoe ha dare yori utsukushiku oh

Safe tonight mise ga owaru made kokoro wo azuketeta

Brilliance What's your brilliance?

'akuma ni mi wo yudanete mo ii'

iikitta Rhythm kawaita kaze ni Silence

Runaway 'hitorikiri no kono yami wo koeru ni ha

Runaway samishisa ni naitecha ikenai yo ne'

Runaway sou tsubuyaita kanojyo wo mamoritakute

Runaway kono mune no yowasa wo nonoshitta

Brilliance What's your brilliance?

'dakishimetai' wo jyashi na me de

sou kitto ima mo sekai wo niramu Tonight

Runaway yoku hareta nanigenai shuumatsu

Runaway hiroin no kuchiguse wo manetemiseta

Runaway itsuka mita ginmaku no serena-de

Runaway utatte yo

Runaway hibiwareta kanojyo no ude ni dakare

Runaway ima dake ha ysuragi ni michiteite

Runaway kanau nara kore kara ha shiawase ni

Runaway nani hitotsu ii koto nakatta na

Runaway

On your way.

Romaji By: Brian Stewart

2005-07-21T22:27:00.000-07:00

Masked killer : Say ure prayers b4 u DIE !!!! Hauhauahauhaua *coughs coughs*

Neko : Warghh !! HELP !!!

Neko : Reorw !!! u dare to kill me ??? im gonna make u cry Huahuahau !

i wont die until i post some pictures !!!

Cosplayer HUNTERS *bang bang*

MANA!!!!

Fiza : OK !! No more pics or else

Neko : *gulp* OK!! (runs away .. waaarghhh!)

Fiza: Huahauhauahauau *broke into evil laugh*

2005-07-20T21:08:00.000-07:00

A movie that ive watched todae ...

A review..

CRYING OUT LOVE
in the centre of the world

In 1980s Kyushu two teenagers fell in love and exchanged their secrets and thoughts by way of sending tape recordings to each other. More than a decade later the boy (now grown-up and bittered) rediscovers the last recording of his long-dead lover's voice. Her words trigger a series of flashbacks illustrating the joyful beginning and tragic end of their relationship.

...

when i watched it .. i was kinda stressed out ( i was fidgeting like mad) cuz the man cant let go of the past ... thinking bout his dead lover .. he has a fiancee ~sheesh .. STOP LIVING IN THE PAST !!! MOVE ON !! ... haiz ... BUT still his memory with his dead-lover was the most sweetest thing ever (sighs dreamily) ... heheheh ... i enjoyed it ... sweet innocence lurvee ... too bad they cant be together ...

I wonder ... lurve like that ?? izit possible ??

i give this movie 3 stars out of 5 [ *** ]

2005-07-19T05:04:00.000-07:00

Juz a picture of me

2005-07-15T20:48:00.000-07:00

k ... finally .. ive done my Oral bahasa melayu as well as my Listening Compre. what do i feel? ... nothing ... cuz .. im gonna move on ... concentrate on my upcoming Prelim exaination .... WAAAAARGH!!!! its coing soon ... aniwae todae we have sum career talk ... ex-students of irsyad came to our classroom and talked about being out there after O level ... it was an ok talk & ive learnt quite alot todae ... and maybe a bit prepared to what im gonna face later on after O level ....

i not sure where im headin ... but i hope to pass my O level and maybe find my true path ... i not sure where to go ... but i hope to get there soon !!!

Oh yah ... almost forgot ... ive met a friend during the oral bahas melayu hehehe ... he's a indonesian (hensem !!!!) his nae is Sadono ... ermm yaa ... if im not wrong ... he's damn cute huahuahauaha ... funny as well ... did get to talk to him ... i like the way he smile n laughed ... juz nice to look at ...

well ... we wont be meeting anymore until the next written examination ... well i hope he'll pass ... me ? heheh hafta to study like crazy hahhahahahhaha
-cioa-

2005-07-12T19:08:00.000-07:00

2 days before oral .... F***

99 days before written exams D*** it

2005-07-09T01:33:00.000-07:00

Elooooooo there (sleepy) its 1 am in the mornin ... me :yawn: not tired yet :blinked blinked: aniwae .. ive been decorating my old hp to make it look brand-new ... i took the paint-spray ... gold, red, silver, and pearl purple ... and sum super glue with sum glow in the dark filing ... and also put sum butterfly stickers ... hahahahah well all i can say it looked better than before atleast ... i wanted a black cover for da hp but no $$$ so ( out of stubborness) i took out all my art materials n do sumthing bout my hp ... hehehe ....

me happy now with new n improved hp

muahahhahahahahah

2005-07-05T21:45:00.000-07:00

Here another pic of the graduating gerlz 2004

miz u guys a lot

haiz

We'll meet again

someday

2005-07-03T15:16:00.000-07:00

CLASS 2004 [ sec 4 ikhlas]

after our N level examination ... we go to our separate ways ...

man ... i didnt think i'll miss em' so much

and sumtimes think about the time we spent

together

But all is not lost

the memories is still here

inside of me

this year in my new class

things feel different yet similar

im gonna miss

the class that im with this year

2005-07-02T11:57:00.000-07:00

Ive watchd tat Scream PV again n again ... hmmm come to think of it its not tat bad ... haiz .. GLAYxEXILE is ok after all ... btw ... Shun, EXILE's vocalist is really damn HOTTTT ahahahha .... yop ... his b'dae is 11/1/19?? i think ... those guys aren't tat popular so gettin info bout em' in da internet is amost impossible but so far i know that they have 2 talented vocalist n 4 hip-hop dancers ??? hahahha wateva la ... they dance quite well ... no complaints there ... i hafta admit ... da song SCREAM is stuck in ma head ryte now ( brain-washed by tat PV) ... cant help but hummed along to its catchy tune ...

2005-07-01T13:27:00.000-07:00

WISH ME LUCK FOR MY Oral exam bebeh ** i know i'll need it

There'll gonna be O level Malay Oral .... coming real soon ... but i havent received my entry proof yet from my class form teacher ... hmmm wonder when it's my turn ... i remember though ... last year when my first oral examination outside school ... it was nerve-wrecking !!!! ... hahahaha i rememebered that i was careless n bummed into the table before i sat down infront of the oral examiner (T_T) ... well at least i earned a reassuring smile from them... well i think it was reassuring ahahhahaha ... wateva la ... i hope i can do it this year .. cant wait though

2005-06-27T23:07:00.000-07:00

IM NOT HAPPY WITH GLAYxEXILE combination ... Ive seen SCREAM PV !!!! argh !!! i cant take it !!! *~Cries~*

Even though i did say i'll support em' BUT this is TOO MUCH TO HANDLE ....

they remind me of J-pop boy-band !!!!

Khai burned me a vcd full of boyband W-inds features ... haha cute boys ... TOO CUTESIE !!! ARGHHHH!!!! *~ RAN AMUK ~*

BREATHE IN .... BREATHE OUT ... *CALM SELF DOWN*

okie .. guesse i need to see tat vid again without cringin ... i want to see n appreciate their werk ... without trying to hit my head on da the table continuously ...*grinning maniacally* HUAHUAHUAHAUAHUAHAUAHAHA

*~ GOIN CRAZEEEEE ~*

DISTURBED

UPSET

...

2005-06-25T20:34:00.000-07:00

Todae i went out with ma family minus my sista ... OUCH my foot (had a long day) ... haiz ... we went to GEYLANG ... of all places ... why geylang ???? Aniwae nothing much happened ... im juz tired to go out but since my family wanna an outing i'll go ... ( seems lyke im force to go) ... i juz go along with em' haiz ... things u do for your family ... k cioa ... my feets hurtin ryte now ... think i'll go rest now ...

(NOTHING MUCH TO TELL >>> BUT EVEN IF THERE IS >>> I WUD'NT >>>

ITs EMBARRASING YET CUTE

MOMENTS )

AWWWWWWWW....

2005-06-22T17:28:00.000-07:00

http://www.selectsmart.com/FREE/select.php?client=anubis

2005-06-21T01:11:00.000-07:00

Its 1:02 am in the morning and im still awake & trying to finish my math roject ... well its not entirely my fault cuz they gave me this task last minute And to make matter worse they gave me the task when my comp was down due to sum corrution in the C/drive ...

i hafta wait for my comp to revived back and while waiting for my comp to be reformatted .. ive forgotten about the math thng, thank god tat Tan called me to remind me as if she cud sense that ive been neglecting my werk ... so here i am slaving away infront of da computer doin this damn project ...

CURSES ..

im sleepy ...

suddenly my world become blurrry ... very blurry ...

eh ... is tat ??? my BED CALLING ME ??? ... yes i cud hear it now ....

hmmm to continue doin this project or go to sleep ... ermmm

BYEE !! THINK I'LL TURN IN FOR DA DAY AND CONTINUE DOIN IT LATER

2005-06-20T21:58:00.000-07:00

haiz ... my days are numbered ... not tat im dyin or wat ... juz tat examination is nearing n i dun have tat confidence .... *weeps*

2005-06-18T17:22:00.000-07:00

FINALLY !!!!

Now that my com have finally reformatted .... i can enjoy surfing the net again ... but now i will try to control myself from using the net too much , yep ...
i need to study & all this while ive been fooling ard too much ... time to chain myself to my desk n haiiizzz .... study ...

2005-06-14T16:39:00.000-07:00

Eh have u guys read about ... MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA by ARTHUR GOLDEN ..... im tryin to finish it .... haiz .... the plot are soooooo interesting .... and i heard that (dunno if true) it will be made into a movie soon .... wooooooooo i cant wait nee ...

I WANNA WATCH IT !!!!

WHO WANNA COME WITH ME AND WATCH

JUZ TELL ME & CAN GO TOGETHER

and yeah i heard that (tis i know its true) INITIAL D movie is on screen now ... or izit coming soon ... well im not sure ... & im not sure if i want to watch it ...

hahahah ... well ive played the game already ... really fun but i dunno if im interested enuf to watch da movie ....

haiz ... i'll wait n see if memoirs of a geisha will be on screen ....

that i really really wanna watch hehehehehheheheh

-ciao-

2005-06-14T15:54:00.000-07:00

Sorie peeps ... for not updating for quite a while ... been bz with stuffs ... and well my comp kinda corrupted ... so i hafta wait till it's been repaired ... and oh yah recently ... SPIRIT X has lost their spirit ... wat telah happened?? haiz ... me kinda disapointed a bit cuz i really really liked their performances ..... they're officially disbanded ... i think ... NANDAYO ?????

i was really excited to see their performances wen i saw rizal coming up to us and said they're not performing ..... sheesh ... when i saw his well .. almost-crying face ... i wanted to cry myself ... haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....

they have sum inner band problems ... sumthing bout perfectionist ... sudden outburst ... blabla bla bla (sorie not into band p0litics) ....

haiz gtg

update it later

i hafta meet sumone ... ryte now ... darn im late

2005-06-05T07:24:00.000-07:00

Todae my mom woke me up & said that PUTEH [my pet cat] had finally given birth to three most cutest kitten ever !!!!!! wargh !!!! im so suprised And estatically happy !!!

Kittens features:
<1> looks exactly like her white-blackish (like Hisa's cat)
<2> All white
<3> white-greyish [KAWAII]

**Jumps ard happy** OMG!!!!

haiz but i can't disturbed PUTEH neee ... she is milking her youngs and my mom warned not to touch cuz PUTEH will get defensive ouh~ i dun wanna Puteh to attack me ~~~ DANGEROUS MAXIMUM WHEN FACE A SCOURNED MOTHER CAT wOOOOoooOOOooOoooOooOOo~

It'll take times before i can touch her youngs ... haiz when??? i wanna cuddle her baby awwwwwwwwwwwww~

SO KIUTTT !!!

K.. Now i wanna find out more bout Cat and her kittens over the internet ... find sum info so that i dun troubled PUTEH or wateva ... huahuahuhahuahua

2005-06-04T22:25:00.000-07:00

Im sewing this costume for cosplayin ...
my mom abandoned me 1/3 through with the making of my costume soooo ...
i guesse im on my own now ... haiz didnt know that sewing is so tough .... haiz .... aniwae ... i finished it half of my kagrra-inspired kimono & ....
i truly hope that it'll turn out the way ive planned it ....
i dun promised it to be perfect neee ... juz accetable ...
well i hope ... my back aches from doing all that manual labour ...
i need a rest ... i wanna finish tis fast so that i can continue concentrate fully on ma studies ... yea i hope

yea i need to sleep *snores snores*

snuggles deeper in my comfy bed *awwwwwwwwwwwww.....*

2005-06-04T16:46:00.000-07:00

haiz ...

lately ive been a bit restless

cuz

exam is drawing near

and i have not done my art work yet

waaaargh!!

haiz ... im doing progress with ma costume

i dunno when will it be finished

but im sure it will turn out ryte

man i juz cant wait to cosplay

i wanna try a kagrra inspired kimono

huahahahhahahahahha

yea!!!

not exactly lyke em'

but sumthing like em'

hee hee

2005-05-31T17:32:00.000-07:00

LEAVE ME ALONE !!! I HATE MY LIFE TO DA EXTEND OF THINKING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS !!!
IM NOT PERFECT !!! SO STOP ASKING FOR PERFECTION ~ DAMMIT !!!

2005-05-31T15:12:00.000-07:00

Thank You Rui for da unexpected gift // u have make me wanna cosplay even more hahhahahahah
Arigatou gozaimasu

Hai~ there's been alot of stuff going on in ma life lately ... i dunno how to say it ... but most of it ... well it is most unsatisfaying and disappointing ... why ? izit because of my own doings ?? im not sure ... is juz tat i wanna break free from something .... something that i cant understand , something is restricting me from ma heart desires .... im not sure wat izit but its there ... end of story ... i dun wanna talk more about it cuz it only will confuse me futher

im feel that i have let my own self down ... i know it sounds funny ... but im disappointed in ma own self .... ive not been doin ma best lately ... all i want is to give up ... wargh !!!! why izit sooooo difficult .... my future seem so bleak ...

shit !@#$%^*

yea my shitty life is getting shittier

2005-05-23T08:45:00.000-07:00

Mood: Tired + Excited
Listening to: Tears i cried (Siam Shade)
Wants to: COSPLAY as MANA ...

Yo ... Its been tiring waaaaargh~ well ... its been 3 days and all ive done is went out with fwens ... talk on da phones (tats tiring too) ... sms-ing (lazy to push hp buttons)... And oh yeah ...

I WANT TO COSPLAY AS MANA !!!! yeaah~ atlast a lolita inspired dress here i come ... ive been wanting to do tis CUZ i have always been in lurve with mana's sense of style and mana himself is my idol ...

im designing this really kewl costume ... and one for rui too ... hmmm why do i feel tat rui's design is better than mine ??? *looks at sketcbook* haiz nevermind todae im gonna meet up with K.Huda ... maybe she can help ... she's gothic herself ... heeey maybe i cud set a gothic society woooo ... tat wud be interesting

Argh mana ... mana .. mana ... man he is soooo ... [dunno wat to describe] SUMTHING!

Ive even kept his old interviews ... man i wish i have his other interviews ... ya know the recent ones ... Have not seen one in da internet [only japanese texts only]

2005-05-17T15:27:00.000-07:00

MOOD: HAPPY
LISTENING TO: WYCLEF JEAN FEAT. CLAUDETTE [dirty dancing havana nights]
WANTS TO: DANCE WITH DIEGO LUNA

TODAE IVE ACTUALLY COOKED SOMETHING WITHOUT HAVING IT BURNT !!! yay !!!
YUM YUM TOM YAM SOUP
HEHE

I CLEANED DA SLIPPERY SQUIDS YUCKZ ...
AND LEMONED SUM PRAWNS
CHOPPED DA VEGETABLES
BLA BLA BLA

FUH` WAT AN EXPERIENCE ...
DA BEST PART WAS COOKING IT AND EATING TOM YAM !!!
SLURP SLURP

2005-05-14T16:28:00.000-07:00

YES!!! MID-YEAR EXAM HAS ENDED
IM SOO DAMN HAPPY
HAHAHA

Todae my tongue gets a lil' nasty ... i kinda swear abit .... shoot! i dun wanna swear ... it kinda slip ...

hahaha ... some were suprised that i actually swear ... oi im not a saint ...

Wateva it is ... im feeling a lil bit guilty haizzzz ... bad neko bad !

i wish things could be much easier ...

Actually i'm really afraid of offending anyone

Cuz i've learnt a lesson about offending sumone

and it's not pretty

ouch !

2005-05-13T16:46:00.000-07:00

"TWANG TWANG"

MY GUITAR

HAIZ ABIT BLUR

HP CAM. BUAT HAL

Artist: Glay
Title: Survival
Words: Takuro
Music: Takuro

In a loud voice, "this era is survival" goes the commentator,
making ominous prophecies, rattling on about darkness.
In the mirror there is a face which blame's everything on yesterday's mishaps.
Those of us who go here, there and everywhere, all day long in a panicky run.

tired of swimming in the waves of society,
even if you let slip a little sarcasm
with what little vitality you've left you're running around the Heisei world.
At the end of the wide sky the light points.
on the last day of Earth,
if the hoop that bound my desires is broken
we can become Adam and Eve.
It's what I need to tough it out in this world
just a little despair too
and you can taste the finest quality spice oh yes !

supposing now, you doubted all your own dreams
would you say, i guess it was right to throw them away ?
An uneasy night, breathing in your sea deeper than anything.
For the sake of that new life, you lived to wish for the future

the stolen summer, keeping my love lit up.
Are you hitting stride on a new born evening ?
activating your metabolism.
a drama that's just started
the thing you should hold next to you
the words you tell
the future of a you who's worth something
no one can take that away
those that worry too much are buried in tedium.

[[ i want to play this song but so far i s*** hahahahhahahaha ]]

2005-05-13T16:16:00.000-07:00

I SEE A WORLD FULL OF CRAP
THE INSECURITIES
THE SUPERFICIAL
OBSERVING OTHER PEOPLE
MAKE ME SEE MY OWN
WEAKNESSES

I THINK THIS YEAR IM KINDA MELLOWED OUT ABIT
IM SICK OF SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE
MAKES ME SICK TO THE STOMACH
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

THIS MAYBE BECAUSE
WHEN I SEE THE STUDENTS THERE
IT REMINDS ME OF MYSELF
BACK THEN
WHEN I WAS LYKE
CURIOUS OF BEING A PRE-TEEN
OR WHEN IVE TURN SEVENTEEN
WHEN I THOUGHT IT WAS
AN AGE OF "MATURITY"

BLA BLA BLA

KINDA LIKE DEJA VUE

IM NOT DISSING ANYONE HERE
BUT AS YOU GET OLDER
YOU'LL SEE THINGS IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT

CUZ IVE KINDA HAVE A FEELING OF REGRET NOW
I WISH I CUD TURN BACK TIME
AND START OVER

AVOIDING THE MISTAKES THAT I HAVE DONE BEFORE
HAIZ
IMPOSSIBLE

ALL THAT I CAN DO
NOW
IS
SABAR JE LAH

2005-05-12T19:15:00.000-07:00

Wargh tired!!!!! toade after my chemistry test ... thought of going sraight home and continue studying ...

But i cant ... TOOO SLEEPY SEH !!!! so i tought why not watch sum TV .... okay sure .. thought that wud cure my boredom but NO!!!! i still feeling tired, cranky and SLEEPY !!!

wargh!!!! i dun wanna sleep .. i wanna to be energetic and running ard annoying people ... but exams are dragging me down lar~

i wanna play my guitar and sing sum songs till it rains and go out with frens and .. and watch movies ... and .. and (rambles on and on and on bout a list of wanna to do things...)

I've become a slave to my books !!!!! wargh !!!!! everyday i'll sit at my desk and busy reading or writing sumthing ....

aniwae after a while trying not to sleep ... at last i've relented and take a nap ... now im feeling bouncy wooooo hehhehehehe all the energy im gonna need to disturb my sista muahhahahahahah (horns coming out) smile deviously

Haiz too bad she's not home yet ...

Chemistry blues

2005-05-11T17:18:00.000-07:00

yea ! today i did not go to school cuz there's no paper .... it is only for the ones who took geography for O level ... anyway ... tomorrow there'll be chem paper ... huargh !!! chemistry is sooo stressful ...

it took me a while to understand sum of da syllabus ... sheesh too bad there's no short-cut to success ... kalau ade fuh ~ rock on!!! huahuahuahuahua

aniwae after sum grueling revising on da subject ... thought of taking a nap .... but i cant .... cuz my lil kuzzins came to visit arghhhhhhhh!!!!! dont they have any examination going on too ??????

Sayonara to napping since they were running ard & making so much noise blergh!

2005-05-09T14:53:00.000-07:00

Todae sumthing really unexpected happened ... fiza gave me a really2 belated b'dae prez ~ THANK YOU ~ ITS A REALLY CUTE LOOKING CAT PICTURE FRAME !!!! `nice .... meow ... lurve it ...

Todae ive finished download all 13 episodes of YAMI NO MATSUEI !!!!! HUARGH!!!
im estatically HAPPY !!!! Sugar rush rush mmmmmmmmmmmm ...

wat else ??? hmmmmm ..... wat to write ???

OH yea ~~~~ gotta go back studying .... sheesh im still here on-line ... *smack myself in the head*

-cioaz-

2005-05-09T04:51:00.000-07:00

I took a test and this is wat ive got
[[[ Wat kind of career that suits me ]]]

[ [ [ Creative and personable ] ] ]

You're a visionary in many people's eyes — able to think outside the box and to come up with your own solutions. You're creative not necessarily in the artistic sense, but because you can expand your mind to do things differently from others.

It might take a while for colleagues to recognize and reward you for your entrepreneurial spirit and abilities. That could be because they envy you, or because they find your ideas slightly rebellious — willing to go against the current.

All in all, you make it hard for people to pigeon hole you. That is why you, more than others, need a job that allows you to play to your strengths, break out of the mold, and truly excel.

2005-05-07T07:21:00.000-07:00

Haiz its been 4 days of mid-year examination ... i dont feel confident at all ... its sooo hard .... arghhhhh (frustrated) .... i really NEED help for my Physics, math and arabic .... sheesh .... if i dun do sumthing bout tis ... im not gonna pass my O level ... NOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooo!! THE HORROR !!

(~_~') stressed-out neko

wanna scream like crazy

wanna punch, kick & hai-yah!

haiz .... i think its better if i meditate

a-ummmmmmmmm (meditation pose)

meowww

.: Anyway atleast there's a good news ~~~ PUTEH IS PREGNANT !!!!!!! :.

yea` since my pet cat is pregnant ~ there'll gonna be loads of kittens !!!!

wooooooooooooo ~

heehhehehehehehehehhehe

im soooo damn happy

TOMORROW [sunday] is MOTHERS DAY

So ... happy mothers day mom !

happy mothers day in advance

for my pet cat puteh

which i think she's gonna give birth soon

2005-05-06T17:09:00.000-07:00

ive found some kewl personalised handphones in the internet ... fuh ~ nice lioa

wow! real nice ... hehehe *look sadly at my old handphone ...* actually i wanna a new flip open plus a camera/vid handphone ... but i cant ~ no ka-ching ka-hing yep ... $$$$$

oh well ... i'll TRY to give my handphone sum new looks ... n voila it will be da envy of all non-hp/hp users ... muhahahhahah

2005-05-02T23:48:00.000-07:00

aniwae today is the first paper for english for mid-year examination .... it was easy i guesse ... aniwae im not sure whether all my answers are correct .... i have my doubts .... aniwae ... ive tried my best to do this paper .... even though i dun use any extravagant words but still i try to make it understandable

the second paper i felt really uncomfortable ... i was sweating .... my hand was clammy ... i guesses im having goosebumps fuuh~ tired meh ...

aniwae todae .... at assembly .... i saw Farhan and Hidayah walk together to school !!!! haiz .... im not angry juz a lil bit jealous [ I ADMIT IT!!!! ] ...
aniwae i juz have to let it go .... cant do anything about it hahaha ... ya know ... he juz my fave junior ... and nothing else .... i dont think about him at all when i do my everyday task, is juz that he gave me the sugar-rush whenever i see him heehee ... naughty neko ehem-ehem !!

smile smile neko .... im not gonna make a big hoo haa aka fuss bout this ... waste my tyme and energy ... forgive me if jealousy bites ... cant do anything about that .... natural instinct... ya know

haiz ... ryte now im in a mild dilemma .... i dunno what to buy for hantu's berfday hahahaha ... seriously ... i'll feel guilty if i dun find her a prez!!! ive already bought for rui , ice and hidayah & i know wat to buy for hazzy [ thankz hazzy for that delicious choc chip cookie yum ]...

RYTE NOW im stump with no ideas ... PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO HAVE STUMBLE UPON THIS BLOG OR ANYBODY I KNOW WHO READ THIS ENTRY >>> PLSSSS GIMME AN IDEA >>> OKAY!!! >>> IM IN DIRE NEED OF AN IDEA >>>> ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU

2005-05-01T19:11:00.000-07:00

Exam is coming & im still fooling around ... i gonna get beaten up by my dad if he gonna see my future results which im very sure is not going to be good *sobs sobs*

i shud be studying todae but i did not .... im not being cocky ~ cuz lately my grade isnt' sumthing to boast about .... i juz dun have tat stamina to study or .... maybe because im juz have no interest at all hahahahaha ...... maybe.... anyway ... i dun lyke to feel pressured ... im not trying to run away from my responsibilities .... Is juz that i dun feel motivated .... i need sum kind of fuel to get me going ..... cuz im feeling kinda sluggish to accomplish anything ryte now blergh ~ this is not a healthy attitude i must say .....

I WANNA WATCH MOON CHILD !!! ~ GACKTO-SAN ... *DREAMY SIGH*

.... eh i shud be concerning about my exam and here i am wanting to watch Gackto-san in action ... haizzzzz .... tats it !!! i gonna cioa now and hit da books .... and hope not to fall asleep tis tyme

Oh YeaH! I feel MoTivAtEd Now!!!!!! HuaRgh!!!

Maulidur Rasul XzibitiOn

2005-04-29T07:38:00.000-07:00

**pIcTuReS**

The MaULiD ThAng ...

SEC 5 ItQaN (Class 05) CrAzEeeeeee AlWaYs

That only sum of the pictures that i had so far ... did not bring any camera ... haiz ... me forgets ....

Aniwae ... it was fun but there were stressful tymes when we have to get it all set up before the next day
STRESSFUL!!!!!!!
but we had it all done aniwae ...
one of da gerls cried though cuz of da pressures
haiz ...
but thank goodness everything werkz out after all